- a strong desire to do or to achieve something, typically requiring determination and hard work.
- desire and determination to achieve success.
Ambitious people always seemed to be cutthroat, selfish jerk-offs to me. I never really looked at ambition as a positive trait, grouping it along with materialistic or petty or mean.
So it was pretty funny last night when my psychiatrist Rah said, "Well, you've always been ambitious."
I had a similar reaction a few years ago when a friend said I was confident. Confident?? Me? What the hell are you talking about? I have low self-esteem, I am vulnerable, I obsess over what people think of me. That said, most of the time I don't give a fuck, but that's not the same as being confident...is it?
I am ambitious.
I am confident.
I can feel my heart fill as I write these words. It's the strangest thing.
How have I gotten this far in life without knowing who or what or how I am?
What else am I missing??